One of the greatest frustrations that I deal with now that I'm disabled, is that no one can truly understand what I'm going through. There is such a wide array of problems that now make my life difficult, it's impossible to explain really. I know it is unreasonable of me to expect that, no one can possibly step into another person's situation to understand. Nonetheless, it is upsetting. I'm hoping that eventually, I can come to terms with all of this.
It was a rough weekend. I was feeling pretty blue to begin with--grieving the loss of my little family which has shattered to pieces, leaving just me and my son under one roof. Dunno what precipitated that pity party, but it was going on since Thursday. Friday, Son's father didn't call, text, or come to pick him up. Son was not inclined to make the effort either. I guess he figures that if his father wants him, he'd initiate. Saturday morning was particularly rough because Son had Saturday School---kind of like detention on Saturday, for being tardy to class after PE. Moving fast is not his strong suit ever. Plus, he doesn't wake up and get going easily either. Basically, Saturday was filled with Son's fussing, homework, tears, slamming of doors,and lot's of I-hate-you's. Yeah, pretty miserable all the way around. I think maybe it was a reaction to how he feels about what's happening with his dad. OR not happening. It culminated in Son sobbing in hi...
Things have been interesting around here. Seems like the man situation is either flood or famine. (sorry about that picture. I just had to. Seems the boys used a "fluffer") lol. I go out with Widower once a week and talk to him on the phone every night. Navy guy is still around and we have been been hanging out quite a bit, talking on the phone. He even calls ME once in awhile or texts me. Seems that my having dates caused him to take more of an interest in me or at least show it. I went on a date last nite with a nice man who is a former Pastor. He was very nice and I enjoyed visiting with him---hope he calls back but from experience, I am not going to hold my breath. There are two other guys who I will probably have a date with in the near future, we'll see how that goes. Truck-Fix-It guy called me to chat the other day but he seems so busy with his children that it's hard to connect with him. That's okay with me though. Army guy called to wish me hap...
None of us are, the best we can do is the best we can do!
ReplyDeleteLove the pics.
But isn't it funny how even his imperfections seem perfect in retrospect? Imperfectly Perfect, that was dad.
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