BESIDE MYSELF--Starting Over

Welp, today is another day! I'm feeling better today. Had my first 2nd date last night with a T'RiFiC computer guy. Le's just call him computer guy. We went for a pleasant drive, hung out at a park down near the river until it closed and continued visiting for a couple more hours. Yup sgood. Basically, we decided to spend time together, get to know each other and enjoy the whole process. Monday night we are goin out to a movie -- life is good! Meanwhile, it feels like Saturday but big mega bummer it's Thursday. Must be a good day for something! My baby is now 11 going on 50. He's a great kiddo. K, nuff for now. I need a nap I think!

Just to clarify, I would rather stay married to my husband if things would change. After 20 years, there was still plenty of sex ---way above average, and I got well over my quota of touches per day. He used to tell me he loved me in his sleep and I believed him. I do believe he loves me in his own dysfunctional way. For a long time, I was able to keep him on an even keel---give him sound advice, help him make plans, stick to them, sometimes complete them. However, there seems to be this idea that he can do better than me, which is totally possible. On the other side of it, yes I know that on an emotional level I have been abused, misused, mistreated, poorly cared for in every area but the physical. Yet that wasn't the whole of our marriage. oh crap. yes it was :/ nevermind.