BESIDE MYSELF--Starting Over

Saturdays, traditionally, are good days. It's really hard to go wrong with a Saturday. I slept pretty well last night--didn't get up for my usual 3 am - 5 am awake break. Nope, I slept thru to 6,just in time to keep CG (my computer guy) awake for the last hour of his overnite shift.YaY Turns out, just in time for him to distract me from hysterics too. I have been taking only half of my anti depressant dose this week -- possibly it caught up with me a bit. Yup, was busy workin myself up with how horrible some aspects of my life are but he is so sweet I got sidetracked. twice. I have decided to give up the time share/vacation club, one of my favorite things ever, for the more mature, financially viable goals of paying off other bills, keeping a roof over our heads, food on the table, etc. It's the smart thing to do and now, having made the decision, things in my brain are a bit more peaceful. Heard via son who spoke to his gma that X is working. Hopefully that means chil...

Today, I suddenly was unsure. Did I do the right thing by leaving? He probably would never have gotten around to leaving me, no matter what he said. So, I went to my boss who has been very supportive and asked her to tell me again why I had to go. She asked me if I would want my daughter to stay in the same situation with a man who treated her as I have been treated. Of course, I wouldn't. Anyway, after she told me a couple things, I thanked her and went back to work. This evening I received a call from hubby who had been to see his credit counselor. He was all worked up about how he needs to make 3000 a month to cover his expenses, might as well just leave the country and not come back, etc. He had me going for a bit until I got tired of it and told him to suck it up and quit whining. "Get another job, do what you have to do and take care of your business!" I reminded him that people all over the country are going thru a similar situation, to just pay his basic ...