BESIDE MYSELF--Starting Over

I made it through last night without the tranquilizer which is a good thing. Today I have been a bit edgy, anxiety creeping up, but so far am okay. I could go to my rebuilding after divorce class at church, but I don't want to. I don't want to see anyone, talk to them, socialize. I did have a date Monday night with a very interesting 6 " 7 bail bondsman. I enjoyed that. Dunno if it will ever happen again, but was good. I usually tell mom when I have melt downs, so she was a bit concerned to hear it and thought I would do it again last night. YaY I didn't but it is worth a bit of sympathy. She ironed my jacket, told me the family would come help me paint the walls this weekend, she would even buy paint. I think I might milk this for all its worth! just kidding. I'm trying to view this as a new freedom--complete freedom. No problem about the EXsex. I am no longer interested. In fact, I would rather not even see him before he goes. I am not interested in his...

I went to my Financial Peace class again today. Today's topic was about dealing with debt collectors, what they can do, can't do and how to work with them. Basically, food, shelter and transportation must come first. After that, pay each creditor out of what disposable income that you have left on a pro-rated basis. That means you calculate total debt, figure out how much percentage each is of the total debt, then divide up the amount between them. Check out Dave Ramsey's website for more details. If you are having issues with debts and finances, I strongly urge you to give his program a shot. Many churches are offering the program, but my brother watched the series on YouTube and within 3 months, he was out of debt except for his mortgage. I was fired up, so went to talk to hubby about doing the program or to make sure his credit counselor is following a similar deal. At 11 am, the house was dark, both kids were sleeping and he was on the computer with one of his...

My Sunday: woke up at five am. didn't feel like breakfast put on new outfit -- giddyup! went to pick up daughter ruffled son's sleepy feathers--he's mah baby. peeked into hubby's room--looked like a dresser threw up all over the floor. Gosh HATE it when that happens. LOVE it that I don't have to care. went to Financial Peace class with daughter took daughter out to eat and had a nice talk with her took daughter home had EXsex. OOPS I did it again. I am SO Britney went shopping and bought CLOTHES. ohmigosh, this is scary... britney's music is SPEAKING to me today . That might be a bad sign! I was driving home yesterday after an hour or so of just shopping for ME, just ME --clothes to get me goin on a change of lifestyle. It was a beautiful, beautiful day. The wind was blowing through my open car windows, caressing my hair. I had the stereo on, listening to tunez and happy with...