BESIDE MYSELF--Starting Over

Today, life is good. I spent time with my previous boyfriend, Fred, who may now be my boyfriend again. It's weird calling him BOYfriend. He's a MAN. no doubt about it. I'm hoping he will be mine, stay mine, etc. I'm optimistic. All I know is what we do have is very special. Anyhoo, he fixed my garage door for me (again). So life is pretty good that way. On financial matters, I have officially changed my mind AGAIN, but this time I am not changing it back. I'm moving into an apartment in a couple of weeks and my sister will stay in my house, feed the dogs for me, etc. I'm going to get myself a new sofa, new bed and take the bare minimum from this place. A new start, a fresh start. Life is good. Not changing my mind on this---it's full steam ahead. Looking forward to it!

Not much going on here. Been a long boring weekend and it's not over yet. I did take myself to a movie yesterday--even sprang for popcorn and a pop. 8:30 pm --that same guy who took me out on a late date last time asked me to dinner again. I almost went, but then I'd taken some medication that would help me sleep so didn't think it would be a good thing for me to drive. Plus, he was the guy who wanted to get naked with me after the first date. I figured it would be more of the same. Also, I don't really see anything working out with him, so prolly no point in wasting my time.

Lots of stuff happening around here--things are streaming crazily in one direction. Kinda scary. K. so, hired a guy to paint the rest of the house exterior so that's done before winter. He's also going to replace the wood on the outside that needs it. Nice thing is, he will take payments. Have an electrician coming in--a tattooed, long haired BIKER electrician coming in to redo my kitchen lights, check and finish all wiring upstairs and put in a new breaker box or something like that. My sister is moving in to the one finished living space upstairs and is going to rent it SO I need to make sure that is all good and ready to go--finish off the wiring, make it purty, have a ceiling fan/light put in there. I had a date with a guy a week or so ago; it was a very enjoyable visit with lots of laughing. He checked with me the next night to see if I was ready to sleep with him yet....(!!??). yeah. lol I wasn't. The guy who broke up with me is back around. Dunno bout that. I...

So, my new guy broke up with me. We were getting along great it seemed, but guess I'm not what he is looking for. Wish I'd seen that coming! lol. I really can't complain too much, considering I've kicked a few guys to the curb myself. Figure if I am gonna dish it out, I need to be able to take it as well. Not gonna lie, this one hurt quite a bit. He was SO wonderful, caring, affectionate, and said wonderful things to me. However, I've always been leery of people who are too easy and free with their words and this definitely proves it true, I'm sorry to say. I'm a bit bruised, angry, and generally not happy about the energy I expended on him, so doubt I'm gonna be ready to jump right in to that situation again easily. I've been texting back and forth with Navy but haven't seen him in over a month. Not really planning on going down that road again. Big news on the home front-- I'm giving up the house and moving into an apartment. The h...