I'm okay

My care pastor's wife stopped me in the hall to ask how I was doing.
I told her that last week was horrible, but I am okay now.
New medication.
Lots of tears.
I am okay now.
However, why does it hurt so much to tell people what is happening?
That he is actively looking for someone else...
and so on and so forth.
I won't bore you with the same details again.
I'm okay.
I'm fine.

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