Had another bad dream about X this morning ;/
He kept grabbing at me, touching me, not letting me go,
even though his girlfriend was in the next room.
When anyone else was around, he acted all sweet and innocent, like I was the crazy one.
I kept screaming at him to not touch me, let me go, keep away from me.
I ended up looking like an idiot
and he ended up looking like an angel.
grrr. grrr.
wish he would get out of my dreams.

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