I'm scared.

What if my marriage was all that there is for me?
What if no one can love me more than my X did (in his own twisted way)?
What if I am alone the rest of my life?

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  1. mertamDecember 30, 2009 at 9:50 AM

    what if you are a lovely person?
    what if you just haven't met that special someone yet?
    what if you made my life all the more richer for chatting to me?
    what if you don't go looking - Things tend to happen when you least expect?

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  2. JulieFebruary 4, 2010 at 4:51 AM

    awww mer, thanks. you are so sweet. I just now noticed this. hugz.

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