Why can't you just hold me

One of the main reasons I stayed married for twenty years was because a very important need of mine was met ---touch. I need to be touched, held, etc often. I'm like a puppy dog that needs to be petted. My X did that right. For most of our marriage he put me to sleep stroking my hair, back, etc. Physically, he took great care of me.

Somehow that compensated for so much until the rest overwhelmed it.

Physically, I've been spoiled.

Now, I have a great boyfriend who I enjoy being around so much when he is awake. Unfortunately, when he isn't working, he is asleep for most of the time.